[What purpose did that serve?] the inner voice said with its usual mocking tone.
'I had to do something..anything.. Ellie was alot of things, but she was my friend..'
he thought in responce.
[this is what you call doing something? ..you are worthless] it sneered.
The tears fell from his eyes, his grief transforming to anger.
[Why didn't you attack Simon..he admitted to murdering her]
'Simon is...was.. my friend too... I thought' he sank down to his knees..
[You think those people like you? your an idiot, a fool.. a monkey to dance for their amusement]
'...not everyone thinks that...' he stared unblinking at the M&M's..
[your deluding yourself, weak deluded fool... how does it feel to be worthless?]
'what would you have me do? kill simon? he's my friend! he was there.. right along with her when she took me in.. she opened her home to..' "TO ME! ME OF ALL PEOPLE! WHY? IF SHE WAS SUCH A MONSTER WHY WOULD SHE DO THAT? ANSWER ME" he was yelling now..
[hahahahaha..] the sickening voice laughed, mocking his anger..
[she took in a wounded deranged animal, for Entertainment.. that's why.. Your good for nothing else..]
he collapsed, falling over into the ashes.
[your weak, worthless and alone] it was becoming a mantra in his head.
[useless, a burden and unloved] it kept whispering to him. He stared up at the night sky, it made him feel even smaller.. in his head the mantra continued.
the torture continued for several minutes, which felt like days to winter, he could feel himself slipping away, giving into the darkness. If he fell now, would he ever get up again? he wondered.
[I'll take away the pain, just give it to me, I'll protect you.. I'll right the wrongs, just let go] the demon whispered, intimate like a mother, or a lover..
[just free me, then we will teach them to mock us.. we will bathe in rivers of blood]
he retreated from the malice, he had been so close to giving in, letting the darkness wash over him..
[NO! YOU WILL GIVE IN TO ME! WHO ELSE WILL SAVE YOU? I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO CARES! RELEASE ME!! ]
'I...can't' it took all of his strength to resist..
[YOU ARE MINE! I AM YOU! WHY DO YOU RESIST YOURSELF! LET ME OUT, YOU WON'T EVEN REMEBER] the voice asailed him..
he wanted to give in, just so it would stop, so it would leave him alone..
he was retreating deeper into himself, the demon was rising..
Then he found it.
He hadn't been looking for one.
He found the beautiful memory.
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he snapped back, he was lying on the ground, looking up at the stars.. the voice was...silent? he sat up, slowly looked around.. everything seemed so...normal.
there were no voices, no strange thought popping up unbidden from his memory.. nothing, which scared him more than anything..
'hello...?' he proded, the voices were either gone, or had fallen silent.. it occured to him then, that perhaps in the memory, he had found a talisman to ward off the madness..