Aishe the Love Doctor (invite only)
It was bedtime for most humans. Aishe realized this, and was still new enough to the vampire world that she naturally wondered about any of their neighbors' late-night comings and goings. Kem was at Meridian, and she wasn't due in for her own shift for several hours. She'd taken the opportunity to run a few errands; they still didn't have a car but it was a lovely night and the store wasn't too far off. She'd simply carried her groceries home, stopping along the way to grab a bite herself.
As she unlocked the door to the house and made her way in she noticed Reign walking Sirius along the road. She couldn't wave, her hands full of groceries, but she figured Reign would understand. When she went back out a little while later to water the bushes, Reign was heading back the opposite direction and she gave the belated wave then, which went unnoticed.
Half an hour later, she heard Zoe scratching at the front door. Kem's cat still refused to have anything to do with her, but apparently there was nothing wrong with her opposable thumbs, and therefore Aishe was considered a tolerable doorwoman. As Zoe zipped by, punctuating her passage with a hiss for no reason Aishe could determine, the young vampire noted, once more, Reign and Sirius passing back the other way.
Closing the door behind her, Aishe stood in the dim light of the front walkway, arms crossed, pondering this occurrence. Reign went to the end of the road, turned, and came back yet again. Sirius looked - well, confused.
As Reign passed the end of their driveway once more, Aishe walked quietly out and cleared her throat softly.
"Howdy neighbor," she said. "Looking for cracks in the pavement?"
Or more than satisfied with the good looking guy she kept about the house. It was hard to get past the hair and eyes but Reign could see what Aishe saw in Kem, just astatically. She deliberately stopped thinking about their relationship, it was too much for her to consider right now.
“Tea might be good thanks.”
Some times hot tea seemed to open her head up and help. Other times she needed ice water and she never seemed to know which was right when. Typically, she just hoped she guessed right.
“Yeah, more or less that’s what I want. And I want to be able to return the favor. Sirius is great for that but… … not quite what I’m aspiring too.”
Although she did give her loyal bodyguard, best friend and family a solid pat. He was always here and that actually helped.
Understanding that Aishe was talking about her and not about Bastian, it still rattled Reign a bit. She had, she really thought she –had- accepted his change. She hadn’t made him into a wolf but she’d accepted that’s what he was. Hadn’t she?
No more thinking that way! She told herself firmly.
“Didn’t Palonius die not to long after giving that bit of advice though?”
She was trying not to sulk and brood but it was hard, harder than Reign would like to admit and right now that little bit of Shakespearian irony wasn’t helping.
“Still you wouldn’t think it would be –that- hard to manage.”
Apparently, it was though.
Filling the kettle and putting it on the stove, Aishe smiled at Reign's observations regarding Sirius. "I'm not sure he's equipped, even if he was all you aspired to."
She shook her head when Reign brought up Palonius, saying, "Yeah he died but we can't all be lucky enough... or unlucky enough... to parallel Shakespeare. I somehow doubt you'll meet the same end as he did."
Well, she thought to herself, at least not exactly the same way.
Reign clamored to her feet, rather ungracefully, grace had never been one of her strong suits, and followed Aishe into the kitchen. Sirius, uncertain of his boundaries followed her and found his way under Aishe’s table. Apparently, it was almost like home for him. She flopped down where ever seemed practically for Aishe and reasonably comfortable for her.
“Oh I’m still of the opinion death is pretty unlucky, at least the way Palonius bit it, but then Shakespeare did have a flair for the dramatic and he seemed to like to knock off his characters.”
This wasn’t a tragedy, not in the Shakespearian sense at least. So she was going to live through it and she’d just have to learn how to move on. She’d done it before, she could do it again.
“I suppose I could head back to Chicago. I know I could, I just don’t think I want to, not just yet. I’m sure I will some day, but now doesn’t feel right.”
She didn’t need to run away again. Although, there wasn’t anything left for her here in Nachton. She didn’t even have a job for god’s sake, not one that meant she had to live anywhere in particular. She wasn’t –really- thinking about moving, not very seriously but she was thinking aloud. Having another point of view on the matter might be good.
That much was true; she tended to be pretty pig-headed sometimes, she knew. Once she had her sights set on something, she had a tendency to bulldoze opposition until she had her way. It wasn't her most admirable trait, but sometimes it worked out for the best. Where she was now, for example. She wouldn't trade what she had now for anything in the world.
"Besides, it wouldn't do to let Bastian chase you away. We win some and we lose some in life. I don't know where I'll be in ten years, or twenty years, but I won't regret any decisions I've made along the way. Life is far too short to waste time reflecting on what could have been."
She didn't want to nip Reign's grieving period in the bud, but what sort of friend would she be if she didn't offer some kind of encouragement?
"I know that's hard to see right now, but the pain will go away. If you're certain you made the right choice, then stand by your decision and look forward."
The kettle whistled. "Well, for now at least look forward to your cup of tea. Green, black, herbal? Kem keeps a pretty good stock."
She showed Reign the rack with various looseleaf teas, some of which Aishe had not yet had the guts to try, such as Tibetan Eye of the Tiger. Kem claimed it was good but Aishe preferred the sweeter flavors and this time around, picked out some jasmine.
Not a huge tea drinker, all hers were bagged teas and more often than not something she picked up on the spur of the moment it didn’t surprise Reign to find she didn’t have much of a preference. All she knew for sure is green tea tended to taste like spinach, at least when she made it. She smelled one or two experimentally and shrugged.
“Surprise me. Just not green.”
She wrinkled her nose indicating her distaste.
Aishe managed to get her to laugh, just a bit, at herself.
“All right you win no running away. I guess as much as I knew it was the right decision then and I know it will be in a while,” however long it took her to get over this mess, “its sort of hard to know its right now.”
Now it was depressing and lonely. But some how she felt Aishe knew that.
“To say nothing of twenty years from now. I’ve never been good at planning that far ahead.”
Her hand hovered over Kem's selection of teas and then landed on the honeybush tea. To Aishe it tasted a bit like wine, and she hoped it might relax Reign a little bit at least.
Setting both cups up to steep, she grabbed a bowl from the cabinet and offered it so Sirius, full of water.
"He's more than welcome to roam," she said offhandedly. "Zoe knows how to hide. She hides from me all the time."
She smiled once again at Reign and shrugged her shoulders. "I don't know what to say about it being the right time, or the right feeling," she said regretfully. "I just know that no matter what happens, you've made a choice and set yourself on a new path. There's no turning back in some things. There are no perfect choices... just good ones, and bad ones. And sometimes you can't tell one from the other at first. All you can do is keep walking and see which one you're on in time."
She was feeling awfully philosophical tonight, but chasing one's vampire lover for over a year tended to give one a lot of time for reflection and pondering. Aishe had gone through it again and again, and she didn't regret her choices. She even remembered telling Christian upon meeting him hat she had never regretted her choices.
Reign shrugged, that’s where he’d hung out at Bastian’s at hotels and at her folks the few times she’d brought him over there. She wasn’t holding him back but Sirius was pretty well mannered and well… he liked it under tables. He did, however, help himself to the water though, they had been walking for a while after all.
Aishe was making her wish she was at least a little bit drunk. She just wasn’t comfortable tackling this kind of emotional issue on her own. It left her too vulnerable, too exposed. But tonight she was actually opening up a little bit.
Sipping at the tea, which was really hot, Reign decided she liked the taste. It was a sweet, but a tart sweet almost like a glass of wine. But a nice hot wine she could feel herself relax just a little bit, a knot at the base of her neck started to untie. It was a long way from being able to sleep but it was a tiny step in the right direction.
“But what if it –was- a bad one. I mean … hell we were apart for ten years. He ran out on me ten years ago we both decided to try again and now we give up?”
And all because Bastian couldn’t keep himself some semblance of sane around the Doc. Gah! But he might be out to hurt the Doc. Reign made up her mind she was thoroughly pissed off at both men. Neither one of them trusted her to handle herself apparently. She irritably tapped her finger on the hot mug. Realizing what she was doing she took another sip of the tea.
“Yeah, yeah I know keep walking and see what happens.”
She grinned. Really, Reign did know the answers she just wasn’t using them. She was sort of trying to end run them, she wasn’t quite ready to face them. But she knew she’d have to and she would soon enough.
“Sometimes though you get tired and you just don’t want to go down the road any further.”
"That's when you rely on your friends and family to drag you down the road a bit, unil you're ready to start walking again. Besides," she added, "if it is a bad one, then sooner or later you're going to get another choice and you can make it better. Right?"
Reign seemed like the tough, sensible type to her. Aishe had no doubts that she could get beyond this. Not right away of course; everyone was entitled to their mourning period. The problems came when you never broke out of that period.
And oh boy, did Aishe have some experience dealing with that. She almost chuckled at the idea. If Reign only knew just how much Aishe could empathize here... nothing says "issues" like a 1600 year old vampire who never reached the point she was trying to get Reign to at least acknowledge.
It didn't make her an expert on the topic, but at least she didn't feel like she was offering empty words of encouragement.
"Bas was the only family I had here. Other than that it's Pakpao and some how I don't think relying on her to drag me any where is a good idea. It might hurt."Â?
She tried to imagine looking to her vampiric sponsor for emotional support and it almost made her laugh. Undoubtedly Pakpao's answer would be some fairly harsh words about Bastian followed by suck it up and move on possibly followed by a smack to the back of the head. It wasn't bad advice, but some people didn't steam roll things quite like that.
"Although, you're doing a fine job of nudging me along."Â?
This was a grand way to bond with some one, tea and sulking. Reign was fond of Aishe, obviously or she wouldn't be talking like this with her, but hadn't had the time to get to know her neighbor as well as she would have liked. Well they were working on that now weren't they? Sort of. Next time it was Aishe's turn to ramble.
Studying her tea, it was an odd color sort of red. She didn't think she'd ever had a red tea usually they were black or brownish. Except for green tea and well... yeah. Any way.
"You don't always get to call a Mulligan but that's not to say things don't work out later. You're right a lousy break doesn't mean you've lost the game, it's just a bit harder to get to the win. Of course some times it sets you up to lose but that's why you play best of seven."Â?
She knew this in her head. Knew all of it. She just wasn't feeling it yet. Still if she said it often enough, if she heard it often enough maybe it would start meaning something again. She smiled weakly, trying to look like she was getting better... being encouraged. And she was. A bit.
She was quick to jump to Pak's defense; she liked her Clanmate a great deal. She was like an older sister, someone she could go to with troubles she couldn't, or wouldn't, burden Kem with. There hadn't been many of those, but sometimes it was just appropriate to bring them elsewhere.
"Well maybe a nudge will do, if dragging won't work. I'll take my victories where I can get them," Aishe said as her smile broke into a grin.
Reign seemed to be enjoying her tea, at least. She'd looked surprised, and then her features had relaxed a little into something a little more peaceful. Aishe listened as Reign rambled on; she sounded like she was trying to convince herself even as the words came out of her mouth, and that was as it should be. If Reign just threw this off easily, then Aishe would have wondered exactly what kind of person she was or what her exact feelings had been.
Reign was strong though. She'd get past this; Aishe knew she would.
“I forget did you tell me how you’d met Pakpao?”
She felt she knew Aishe well enough that she knew better than to ask for details or opinions. Her neighbor just didn’t give the impression of a gossip or anything like that. So, she knew better than to ask for details.
Being around Aishe’s positive attitude helped a little; the cheerful smile and taking the good where she could find it. Reign had trouble with that on her own. No wonder she could track Kem down like she had. Although, Reign considered, it wasn’t the same not at all. She couldn’t go a pop Bastian and try again. She couldn’t and wouldn’t it was over. Now she just had to get her heart to catch up with her head.
“No I’m far to stubborn to drag,” and more than a bit bigger than her petit neighbor “nudging is best all the way around.”
Turning her attention to her tea Reign found herself spacing out and staring out the window. She was ‘gone’ for several seconds before she noticed. Oh lord she should get moving soon or poor Aishe was gonna think she was nuts.
"Kem and Pak have worked together for years," she said. "They're very close. Sort of a big brother, little sister relationship. Naturally I was dragged into it when Kem and I started dating. They have a lot in common."
She laughed softly and shook her head. "Not the least of which is their sense of humor."
She realized what she'd said and shrugged. "I guess I'm okay with being dragged, at least in some cases."
She busied herself putting away the bags of loose tea and rinsing out the kettle as Reign seemed to zone out for a little. Aishe had a feeling her neighbor would be doing more of the same in the next few weeks, but she hoped she'd at least given her a respite from all of her worries, however short it may be.
‘I had that once.’ And Reign found herself thinking of Vince. Poor, dear, sweet, abused, Vince and even John, his twin. God she’d done both of them, and to a lesser degree, herself, a monumental disservice by marrying Vince. She could see now part of it was trying to out run Bastian’s memory. But that really didn’t help her conscience or self-esteem and something inside her twisted painfully. Much to her embarrassment Reign felt herself on the edge of tears. Not just for Vince and her adopted brothers but for Bastian and her family as well.
God no! No! she couldn’t do that here. Not now. She had an image to maintain and sure as hell didn’t know Aishe well enough to blubber at her Reign choked things back and forced herself to focus. Vicious, ruthless slayer of pool tables did –not- cry. She forced some humor,
“I’m not sure about your Pak, she’s different from mine, but I would say from what I know of yours and what I know of Kem be careful. I wouldn’t want to get in the middle. If they ever get to playing rough you are welcome to hide out at my place.”
And Aishe’s Pak was quite different from hers. It might be the same woman, but so very different.
Not able to keep the humor and feeling guilt sneak up on her and trying to drag her down, even the tears weren’t far from her, Reign decided rather abruptly to excuse herself.
“I appreciate… thanks for the tea and the ear. We should get together again but, it’s getting late. You don’t mind if I jet do you?”
She whistled softly and Sirius hoisted himself up and padded to her side. Reign fumbled a bit and found his leash, grabbing it something like a life line.
Among other things.
Seeing the expression on Reign's face, Aishe wasn't sure exactly what had gotten Reign back into her funk, but it was bound to happen of course. Sooner or later she'd come to terms with it, hopefully. She was tempted to hug Reign but she didn't seem the hugging sort, and Aishe knew she was trying hard not to cry. A hug might push her over the edge and she didn't imagine Reign would like that very much.
"Of course I don't mind," she said. "The door is always open if you need it though, and so is my ear. Both of them, even."
She walked them both to the door and, with a last pat for Sirius and a sympathetic smile for Reign, saw them out. Surely Reign didn't need to be walked home, but Aishe did keep watch from the doorway until she saw the light stream forth from her neighbor's house just down the road, and Reign was closed safely inside her own place.
((ooc: Both out, with permission.))