Risk Assessment
Continued from Celebrity Cribs
Thaddeus took the opportunity while Palmer was distracted with Alfarinn to approach Claire, who was waiting behind the others to exit. He had been so anxious to speak with her since their discovery of Sorin's other child, but now that it came down to it he discovered that he was downright nervous. He supposed that was only natural - he had no idea how Claire would react and there was a good chance he would say the wrong thing and only make the matter worse.
Nervous or not, though, he knew it had to be done. It would be irresponsible to allow Claire to continue in her involvement without knowing all the facts. He couldn't help but wonder, though, if he wasn't also doing this to ease his own mind, to share the burden of this knowledge. In that context what he was about to do seemed selfish and cruel, and while he would have liked to believe he had only good intentions, he knew there was a part of him that would be relieved when he had told her.
It was with such depressing thoughts in mind that he spoke. He had at first raised his hand to touch her arm, just to get her attention, but then he thought better of it and lowered his hand once more. There was no reason to startle her - he had already upset her quite enough and would again very shortly.
"Could you stay a moment, please? There's something I need to speak with you about."Â?
Still he was relieved when Thaddeus turned to him and removed any doubts from his mind on the appropriateness of his gesture. He smiled at the quick kiss to his chin but again wondered if his companion would enjoy this more elsewhere and in a different position. Remembering that he had made Thaddeus wait quite a long time in some of their past playful gestures, Alfarinn was reluctant to do the same here.
Besides, he mused as he coated his finger again, Thaddeus had wanted to make one of his fantasies come true and it would be a shame to disappoint him. Considering the day they had already, Alfarinn really did not wish for anything about this evening to go wrong.
Carefully sliding his finger along Thaddeus' opening, Alfarinn brushed it gently before entering. He tilted away on one side enough to slowly move in and out while resting his head on Thaddeus' shoulder. He replaced one finger with two while his other hand slid down to slowly stroke his lover's length.
As he pulled away to prepare himself, he paused to lean fully against Thaddeus once more. He whispered low and rough
"Good, because I need you."Â?
He made a pleased murmur when he felt his Alfarinn’s finger brush over him, wondering if this was to be more teasing, but his lover quickly proved his seriousness. Reaching back, he wrapped one hand around the outside of Alfarinn’s thigh, mostly to be able to touch him in any way he could. He bit down on his lower lip in a half hearted effort toward restraint when he felt a second finger join the first in moving in and out of him, though when that cool hand wrapped around him he rather quickly gave up any efforts toward composure, gasping and moaning low in his throat. His free hand reached for the edge of the tub, wanting more resistance for his lover to push against. They both seemed reluctant to allow for more space between them than was necessary, though Alfarinn did eventually pull back, eliciting a whimper from Thaddeus in spite of the fact that he knew there were perfectly logical reasons for the motion. He was, nevertheless, physically relieved when his lover leaned fully against him.
Alfarinn’s voice in his ear sent exquisite chills down his already over stimulated spine, though he still managed a gentle smile in spite of the little shiver and the eager twitch of his calf muscles, and his voice was quiet but steady.
“You have me.”
Alfarinn would have him much more literally in a moment but he had, with what was left of his mental processes, imagined they were speaking at least partly figuratively and he felt he was safe in his assessment.
That being so, he still expected to tease his companion quite possibly to the brink of physical frustration and hoped that he would be forgiven when all was done. He gave Thaddeus a tender kiss on the cheek in response to his statement before guiding the hand wraped around his thigh to the edge of the tub.
With his lover thus braced and balanced, he carefully slid himself inside, moving slowly but smoothly until he brushed up against Thaddeus once more. Despite the animal urge that yearned to move, Alfarinn paused for his lover to adjust, leaning against Thaddeus' back and running his hands gently along his lover's sides.
He dryly informed himself that at this point exhaling would probably be a turn on and smiled in anticipation as the ripping water indicated that his lover was likewise getting situated.
His chin dropped down even lower when Alfarinn pushed into him, gently and steadily, as his heart raced and his breathing went down to almost nothing. He sighed shakily and lifted his head just slightly when at last he could feel his lover fully against him, fully in him, as close as they could be. For a long moment there was nothing but that closeness that left no room for other sensation or thought – Alfarinn resting against his back, his cool skin striking an interesting contrast with the hot steam rising up from the water. His own shallow breathing mingling with Alfarinn’s. Careful fingertips stroking his sides as his body relaxed against this welcome intrusion. The water swirling distantly below, barely felt now where moments ago its heat had seemed so prominent. Little beads running down his arms, condensation from the steam that gave his skin a slightly slippery quality, the better for those beautiful hands to glide over.
He opened his eyes, wanting presence rather than oblivion, and for the first time realized just how tightly he was gripping the side of the tub. This was a good sort of tension, though – thrilling expectation rather than past worries and future anxieties. He pushed back just enough to give Alfarinn better resistance, breathing in sharply before speaking, his voice barely audible.
“Mmm…love when you touch me…don’t stop…please…” Thinking that he would be happy for the rest of his days if only Alfarinn would never stop touching him, he ignored the impracticalities of his own request and held out hope that his lover wouldn’t let go of him until absolutely necessary.
Thaddeus' words startled him with its echo of his own sentiment. Still he had always thought of himself as the one of them that most needed to touch and be touched. It was reassuring and moving that his lover felt that same desire and it was a request that he had every intention of fulfilling. The last word of that entreaty echoed again and again in his mind as he ran his hands beneath the water to caress the tops of heated thighs.
He managed to murmur a soft reply
"Of course, Beloved."Â?
Hoping that Thaddeus understood his meaning in such simple words.
Leaning back, he opened his eyes then. He wanted to see, knowing that it would add fuel to his desire and not caring. Alfarinn had to pause his caresses and hold on to his companion for a second as he resisted his body's automatic response to the beautifully erotic sight in front of him. It was a vision indescribable but the beauty of it was set in the graceful lines of Thaddeus' back as he arched and moved. It was there in the knuckles turned white from their fierce grip on the tub's edge; Alfarinn felt a twinge of longing jealousy before the moment swept such pettiness away. He watched the tilt of his lover's head and curving lines of his shoulder blades, so smooth and slender that it was no wonder that Thaddeus could become a bird.
But it was the trust and acceptance made so clear by the posture that touched him the most; Thaddeus, that guarded man he first met with the flashes of quick intelligence glittering behind a composed calm,was here so open and willing...for him. How could one not be overcome by a sense of desire and wonder?
Remembering himself, he leaned against Thaddeus once more, gliding his hands upwards to move along his lover's water slicked chest. He pressed them there spread out flat as he slowly pulled out and pushed back in, that first long awaited stroke sending a shudder of pleasure through him. Alfarinn forced himself to be patient and continued with another steady thrust, setting a slowly building rhythm as his hands began explore once more.
A breathless ‘oh’ escaped him when Alfarinn pulled back, then pushed into him in a slow, fluid thrust that seemed to reach every nerve of his body. The hands splayed over his chest leant a measure of comfort and stability and he could feel his heart beating rapidly against them, knowing that Alfarinn could as well. His breathing hitched at the next stroke and for a moment it seemed that everything save the easy movements of their bodies went strikingly still, though more likely that was simply an indication of where his focus was currently held. Then those amazing hands slid along his chest and he was awash in overwhelming sensation.
He felt himself wanting more, harder, and had to bite down on his lower lip to calm that fierce need that had started out as such tender desire. Those slow, steady thrusts and wandering hands were driving him to absolute distraction and while he was certainly enjoying every minute of it, he was in part hungry for firm quick thrusts and the grasp of one cool, strong hand wrapped around him. At the same time, the idea of Alfarinn setting the pace, knowing what he wanted and waiting for the right moment, was arousing, thrilling even in its own way, and meaningful. He trusted that he was in good hands and that confidence made simply relaxing and enjoying the slow build much easier. There was something to be said for self discipline even in the face of more aggressive desires, and he believed Alfarinn appreciated this concept as well. He wouldn’t have this moment any other way.
Even so, the leverage he gained from bracing himself against the tub ought to be put to good use, in his mind. He let Alfarinn set the pace but pushed back to meet each thrust, making little gasps of pleasure through his teeth and gripping the edge of the tub (which unlike Alfarinn could be handled just as roughly as he chose) all the harder.
He kissed his lover's back, tasting the salt and water together. Smiling, Alfarinn pressed his teeth against Thaddeus' shoulder in a playfully rough bite that did not break the skin and ran his short fingernails lightly along his lover's chest.
Thaddeus was fully here with him for the moment and he was determined to make it impossible to think of anything else. It made him happy to know that his lover was content and that the only tension he felt right now was the sexual torture of his horribly cruel and teasing lover.
Despite labeling himself as terribly mean, Alfarinn did not want to drag out the experience beyond the breaking point were excitement becomes annoyed frustration. Though,he could not honestly say that this sentiment was all selflessly for Thaddeus' benefit. The feeling of his lover pushing against him with each stroke, silently asking for more, was too much to handle. He moaned softly, feeling it reverberate against Thaddeus' back and quickly die away. It was an intimate sound amidst the impersonal distant noise of the city far below.
He pulled himself upright once more and slid his hands down to grasp his lover's hips. Holding tightly, Alfarinn pushed deeper and pulled Thaddeus to him at the end of each thrust. He continued his slow movements at first, watching his lover as they parted and connected until he could no longer take the pace.
[You are irresistible]
Bending down Alfarinn placed a kiss between his lover's shoulder blades before adjusting his hold on Thaddeus' hips. He pushed harder and faster, listening through the bond for any signs that he was being too harsh or moving too quickly. Alfarinn's eyes fell shut once more as he concentrated on the growing ecstasy of the moment. Little gasps of effort ended each stroke and every inch of his skin was aching to be touched. The cool wind teased his back, using his own hair as a feather light toy of sensory torture; in contrast Thaddeus was so warm in front of him and a part of him wanted to feel his lover wrapped around him, holding him tightly. But this in the here and now was perfect in its own way.
Alfarinn found himself grinding his jaw tightly against the utterances that wished to be made and he gave into them. His low moans of pleasure mingled with his lover's breathless gasps in one of the most pleasing mixes of sound that he had ever heard.
Shivering at the scrape of fingernails running down his chest, Thaddeus made a noise between a gasp and a whimper, a low and somewhat desperate sound drawn out of him in part because he hardly knew whether to lean into the touch below or arch into the teasing nip above. He felt more utterly helpless to his lover’s ministrations by the moment and couldn’t help but find that vulnerability exciting. His head tilted up and he tried for a moment to catch his breath and regain some semblance of poise but realized quickly that it was a lost cause – he was completely gone on passion and need and had discovered he was in no hurry for his usual composure to return. The aching suspense and carefully selective stimulation was enough to turn him into a writhing mass of pleasure and he suspected he would have to settle for keeping the pace and not dissolving completely at the sound of his lover’s moans mingling with his own harsh breathing and increasingly vocal gasps.
He gave an incredulous grunt when Alfarinn declared him irresistible, thinking surely that was the pot calling the kettle black. Good thing neither of them were particularly inclined to resist each other, then! The light kiss to his back showed his lover’s sincerity, though, and he could hardly help a deeply affectionate smile even in the midst of their more impassioned movements.
[Hmm, I do try…]
Long fingers gripped tightly around his hips and he felt a jolt of excitement as Alfarinn pushed against him more firmly. Perhaps he was asking for trouble, making teasing comments like that, but with Alfarinn it was generally the right sort of trouble. It was liberating to feel so uninhibited, to the point of shamelessness, even, and he was content to enjoy the freedom offered in his lover’s grounding strokes and secure grip.
Each stroke brought him to new levels of excitement mingled with increasing urgency, all the while leaving coherency further behind. He wasn’t sure he’d remember his own name if asked but fortunately his lover’s came to mind quite easily.
[Alfarinn…]
He surprised himself with his own inflection, so intense and filled with naked desire, but threaded with a reverent sort of gratitude. And he was, even when being brought to his absolute limits, grateful to be so loved and cared for.
[Hmmmph]
He would have liked to have said something more, but his body was protesting the one wandering thought already and for the moment it was very much in control of the situation. Be witty later, it clearly commanded, when desire was sated and the body wanted to rest.
Now though, all he wanted was Thaddeus with every portion of his being, every inch of flesh, every wave of emotion, and every single thought. He released his lover's hips and slid his hands upward along Thaddeus' chest until they gripped his lover's shoulders. With a sigh of satisfaction, he pulled close to his companion once more, brushing fully against Thaddeus with each increasingly frenzied stroke.
The one word nearly stopped him completely, going straight through his nearly oblivious senses and to the very heart of him. The sound of his name said in such a way was enough to undo him completely. A part of him longed to take his lover over the edge that he found himself going over and another longed to be fully focused on Thaddeus' own enjoyment when his partner did eventually succumb.
Not sure that he could find his voice, Alfarinn sent.
[Beloved...]
And feeling that his companion did deserve more than that he put forth the effort of using his vocal chords for something other than unintelligible gasps and moans.
"Soon, I promise."Â?
He closed his eyes and held Thaddeus tightly against him, his cheek against his lover's shoulder, as he came in a hard and brilliant flash. Blinding pleasure descended into momentary oblivion and all Alfarinn could do was hold on as it ripped through him. His hands had begun stroking Thaddeus' chest of their own accord when he finally blinked and was fully aware of himself once more.
"Let me make good on that promise."Â?
Feeling Alfarinn’s pleasure through the bond when he was practically breaking with need himself was an entirely new experience, and he would reflect later that his lover’s promise spoken softly in his ear was the only thing that kept him from going completely out of his mind with sensation and desperation. Even so it was a near thing and he was grateful Alfarinn was holding him so tightly the entire time he rode out the tumultuous enjoyment trying to split every part of him. The words seemed to play over and over in his mind, a quiet undertone that leant a measure of sweetness to the sharp pleasure washing over him.
He reached up a bit after their movements stilled, as he no longer needed both hands for balance, and grasped one of Alfarinn’s wandering hands tightly in his. In part this was simply to assert his presence, wanting his lover to know for certain that he was still with him in a more physical way, but also because for a moment he didn’t think his over-sensitized skin could take any more stimulation. He squeezed, holding both of their hands to his chest and letting his partner feel his racing heart, wondering if Alfarinn would be pleased to feel that basic physical indicator of excitement and exertion. After a moment he realized he should let go, as, caught up as he was, his grip was a bit more firm than intended, and he slowly loosened his hold.
Brushing away a stray bit of hair from his cheek, he looked down at the hand still clinging to the side of the tub. It was shaking, his entire arm was trembling and not just from the weight it was bearing. He was kidding himself with any attempts at composure, but still he managed to at least attempt to feign lightness, even if his voice had gone somewhat tremulous.
“Just what did you have in mind?”
He might have asked that in the beginning but he found he liked his lover’s surprises. Even now he doubted he would get a straight answer and he wondered if his query would be seen as impatience but he simply couldn’t –not- ask. His lover had promised and he had every confidence Alfarinn would deliver but this needful ache was not easily swayed by rational arguments and internal discussions of patience.
“Beloved...”
He murmured contentedly and kissed Thaddeus on the shoulder once more before carefully raising them both out of the water. Pulling away from his companion and settling them both on the edge of the tub. Alfarinn used the extra towel to quickly clean himself off as he answered Thaddeus' question.
“If you would do me the kind favor of taking a seat here then I will show you.”
Looking up from his task, he smiled at his companion. Gesturing to the lounge seat, he helped Thaddeus back down into it, the right way this time; they both had rather shaky balance at the moment for a number of reasons and he wanted to take no chances on ruining the rest of the evening. Taking up the tube again, Alfarinn prepared himself before kneeling down into the water once more. This time he straddled his lover.
“I was thinking of something like this...”
He reached back with the hand that he had coated and slid it along Thaddeus' length in several firm long strokes. With one hand on the edge of the tub to help support his weight and keep his balance, Alfarinn carefully guided Thaddeus inside him. He tilted his head back and his eyes closed momentarily as he concentrated on adjusting to the feel of being entered and filled. There was no part of the sensation that was unenjoyable but the initial dull ache, that was pleasant in its own way, gave way to other sensations and the urge to move and reaffirm with every thrust that they were connected. He belonged to Thaddeus and there was nothing like having his lover inside him to physically assert that very real fact.
With his eyes still closed and before he began to move, Alfarinn smiled and asked.
“Satisfactory?”
For a moment he suspected his senses were in plain disbelief when that cool slick hand wrapped around him and it wasn’t until he heard himself moan that everything fell into place – firm strokes and his head tilted back on the rest and his lover close enough to touch all came together in a single phenomenal moment. He swallowed hard and opened his eyes after that brief but complete indulgence and once again reached out to pull his lover to him. This time Alfarinn came closer and he pulled up to meet him, wrapped his arms around him in warm invitation, burying his face in one shoulder as he was slowly guided inside. He continued to hold on tightly, relishing this nearly agonizing pleasure as long as he could.
At first he managed only a mute nod in response to his lover’s query, thinking that was a rhetorical question if he ever heard one. After another moment to gather his wits, though, he whispered softly into his lover’s neck.
“Always.”
Now that Alfarinn was quite comfortably settled Thaddeus felt a wave of calm settle over him, though the sense of urgency still hummed low in the background. He wanted this to last even if he was admittedly questioning his own stamina right now. Trailing one hand lightly up his partner’s spine and letting soft blonde hair fall around his fingers, he leaned in, pressing their bodies together as much as he could, and whispered, tilting his head up to let his lips brush his lover’s ear.
“Slow, love.”
That succinct plea for mercy made, he wrapped his arm around Alfarinn’s waist and let the other trail down one thigh, then tilted his head to one side, intent on kissing his lover thoroughly while they moved together.
The cunning lips gently brushing his ear; Alfarinn sighed and slid one arm behind his lover's back. He held them close together or perhaps he was simply holding on. Hearing his lover tell him what he wanted was thrilling and he wanted nothing more than to comply with any whim Thaddeus should have. The whispered request for patience also had the fiendish result of stirring back up the beginnings of desire, mental at first but at this rate it would not be long before the rest of his body awakened once more to follow.
He nodded his agreement and leaned down to take Thaddeus' lips in kiss with equal slowness. Capturing the lower one between his own, Alfarinn gave it a gentle tug before releasing it in order to pay better attention to them both.
[Your wish is my command.]
He sent to Thaddeus with a mischievous smirk. His legs flexed and he raised himself up, pausing significantly before lowering himself once more. It was doubtful that such a pace was exactly what Thaddeus had in mind. Nor could he sustain such a torture for very long before he too went insane with the need for more.
Alfarinn pressed himself against his lover, leaning them both over so that Thaddeus was more against the back of the lounge seat. He then spread both hands flat on the smooth surface on either side of Thaddeus' head and propped himself up on his arms. Moving in a slow steady rhythm, Alfarinn closed his eyes, feeling that stirring of desire flicker into brighter life with each stroke.
That single movement had the effect of making him that much more helpless to Alfarinn’s whims. He smiled without a trace of smirk at his lover’s somewhat ironic remark and quite willingly leaned back, ending up resting against the seat with the jets pulsing against his back and Alfarinn moving slowly over him and everything being so breathlessly close to too much that he wanted to close his eyes and do nothing but feel. He didn’t, though – how could he when Alfarinn’s chin was tilted just so and his eyes were shut and steam and sweat made his hair cling to his skin in a fashion Thaddeus couldn’t perceive as anything other than thoroughly debauched? He wanted to see everything even if it –was- all more than he could take. Of their own accord his hands ran down that pale throat, over Alfarinn’s chest and down to the strong thighs that stretched and contracted with each movement. He spread his hands, feeling the muscles move underneath them, and sent in his subdued, quiet way that came over him at such moments.
[You are breathtaking.]
He was likely torturing himself, he realized, but he could hardly be expected to stop touching his amazing lover now, even as dangerously close as he was.
/ooc Nova (voyeuristic naughty girl that she is) advised Thaddeus to think of baseball. Thaddeus would like to state for the record that he is –not- thinking of baseball.
[I am very glad you think so.]
Pushing back up enough to watch Thaddeus, Alfarinn held his lover's gaze. He enjoyed the connection between them this way. He could look at his companion and find him looking back, not always caught up in his own world of selfish pleasure, but here with him, experiencing it together. He never tired of those mesmerizing light grey eyes and what he saw behind them. He hoped that his own reflected the same thing but felt that they could not help but express the overwhelming love and admiration for Thaddeus that seemed to him barely able to be contained within him.
Having his lips so close to the ones beneath them, Alfarinn found it difficult to resist their allure for very long. He brushed his lightly over Thaddeus' before coming back to press gently against the smooth warmth of his partner's lips. Tilting his head slightly to the side, Alfarinn tentatively licked at the opening of his lover's mouth, silently requesting admittance.
He parted his lips, an anticipatory shiver going through him as he tilted his chin to gradually allow the kiss to deepen. His tongue lightly brushed against Alfarinn’s before pulling back, inviting his lover for more, darting out again to tease or insist, he wasn’t entirely sure at the moment. With his lips he asserted just a very gentle pressure, letting this evolve slowly and finding everything all the more passionate for their patience.
So passionate, in fact, that for a moment he entirely forgot that his hands could be quite useful in this equation. They had settled on Alfarinn’s lean thighs but now he slowly trailed one upward, blindly as his eyes were closed but fortunately knowing the way quite well by now. As that hand journeyed slowly up his lover’s chest, he allowed the other to continue resting on one thigh, rising up and down with Alfarinn’s movements, though now he moved his thumb in little teasing strokes and circles along the inside.
His other hand eventually made it up to those silky strands that spilled down over smooth shoulders, and it was with a soft inward moan that he ran his hand up that last bit of distance to bury in pale blonde hair.
He tilted his lips away, creating only a fraction of space between them. Biting down on his lip, Alfarinn collected some of the blood on his tongue before entwining it and his mouth with his lover's once more.
The small taste of blood, even his own, added more fuel to the flames of passion. Alfarinn ran his hands upward until they were over his head, gripping the edge of the tub tightly. Pressing their lips more firmly together, Alfarinn sent Thaddeus a soft growl and increased the force and pace of his strokes.
[Mmm…my sexy man…]
Alfarinn increased the pace to something more forceful and for a moment it was all Thaddeus could do to keep up, to keep from completely losing himself to these amazing sensations. Finding his capacity for teasing severely reduced in light of current circumstances, he gave up the suggestive touches along Alfarinn’s inner thigh and instead wrapped his hand around his lover’s increasing arousal, returning the low growl with one of his own. His other hand had drifted down to cup one shoulder when his lover began to move more quickly and in the heat of everything else had ultimately ended up splayed over the smooth expanse of skin between his lover’s shoulder blades, where it rested as they moved together with ever growing vigor.
He was glad that his own desires were something less sharp, though feeling Thaddeus' intense passion and need only aided in bringing his own emotions back up to the same level. He could focus more on his companion and take the time to savor that inevitable climax when it came. One of them was not as driven, more in control, able to be ...
His lover's hand wrapped around his length. Alfarrin pulled back, gasping slightly in surprise. Leaning down to his lover's neck, he brushed his lips lightly against the warm wet skin. Pressing his mouth down more firmly, Alfarinn moaned softly against Thaddeus, feeling it hum lightly before fading away. So much for being able to be patient; that teasing hand wrapped around him brought his own need sharply back to life.
[Very naughty...Thaddeus...very naughty]
Alfarinn grinned against his lover's neck.
He felt momentarily concerned when Alfarinn started at his touch, though he was assured by his lover’s apparent enjoyment of his latest gesture. Had Alfarinn really expected him to keep his hands to himself? His eyes fluttered as his lover’s cool lips ran over his heated skin and he reflected that he certainly knew better than to expect ‘good’ behavior from Alfarinn. With a low purr he tilted his head to one side to allow for better access, not quite able to think of a fully coherent defense to Alfarinn’s accusations.
[Mmm…beyond all doubt I’m afraid…]
He pressed his cheek against the wet strands of hair that clung to his lover’s neck and began moving his hand in full strokes to match Alfarinn’s movements. His breathing was ragged now and his eyes were closed; he was so close to the edge that his senses seemed to be giving out one by one, the better to focus the things closest to the surface.